Very bittersweet feeling....

This morning I had baccalaureate chapel in my wonderful school NU. I just realized that it was not easy to leave the school. I had such an amazing memories and wonderful community, but time flies and when it's time to move on to the next level, its time to move.... I have found the greatest community I have ever had in my life. Friends who are not just a friend, but family. Community who encourage each other to be closer to God and inspired each other. I have never experienced this before and I found it in my school Northwest University. 

I still remember 3 years ago, before I came to this school, I asked God "Why You want me to go to this school?" and He said, "I want you to learn something from here." I just follow God's way and after 3 years, I realized that I learned a lot from here. I do not just learn academically, but spiritually. This school has shaped me into a person that I am today.

The first time I came to NU, I was wondering why I need 3 times chapel in a week, why I need to take Bible classes and why everyone is so encouraging each other??!! However, I realized that the more I seek Jesus, the more I am hungry of His words, His songs and His joy! Besides, the friendship that I have in here is very special and I believe our friendship will last long! its not ended up here, but forever! friendship is all about heart, friendship is all about encouraging each other, friendship is all about loving each other and I found it in NU. 

When I had the most challenging moment in my life, they are always encourage me and speak about His words. This two months has been really challenging and something that very unexpected, but I am really thankful that I am here surrounding with most wonderful people in my life who encourage me to not stop believing His will in dry season. 

Next week will be my last week in NU! I know that it will be very hard to leave the comfort zone...but when it's time to move, it's time... I believe that God have amazing plan and send great community like what I have right now.... and I do believe that our friendship is not just a family friendship, but connection that one day we will work together for God's glory. I pray that the vision that we have won't stop until here. 

I will really miss everything in Seattle and NU! I just wanna say that I just had the best 3 years in my life! and I am super excited for what God gonna bring me next :) 

God is a loving Father and He provides :)

Believe

Let me share what Pastor Chelsea (City Church) preach about 4 months ago. I just realized that I have not posted it yet. I found that its such a powerful messages for all of us who need His guidance. I had a challenging season this two months. I opened my journal book again and ohmy... this message really encourage me to BELIEVE. His words is alive and never get old!

This is what I wrote on my journal....

It is time

It's time TO BELIEVE the promise of God.
- I don't understand, but I choose to believe You.
- Trust: being okay
- Faith: I'm gonna believe!
- God is waiting for you to ask good things
- Faith isn't give a stare to the situation and give God a glance, faith is give glory to God and to look to God that He is able.

4 things:
1. Its time to believe for more what we deserve (Romans 4:14)
2. It is time to believe that God is good (Romans 4:17)
3. God has good plans for us (Romans 4:18)
4. It is time to believe a miracle (Romas 4:21)

Faith

Lord, where is my faith?

Don't You hear my prayers?

Where is the answer?

Why this happened to me?

Lord,

everything seems so impossible

You promise that the time is coming..

but when?

My soul wait patiently

but it just in my dream

Why don't you prove it Lord?

Isn't it easy for You to "prove" it?

Lord,

my heart cry

hurt that produce tears

and sadness in my eyes

My Father,

please don't leave me

once again,

walk with me

I am weak

I need strength

Let You hold my hand

in the darkness

I believe You

the time is almost there

it's almost there

I believe

everything will be allright

as You promise

Forgive me o my Lord

give me strength to go through

this moment...

The moment of FAITH

Thank you Father...

once again...

thank you