Saying "YES" to His Will :)

Today I've decided to reflect and read my journal again and theres no words to explain how peace my heart is after doing what God wanted me to do.
This few months have been really challenging for me. I am too worried about everything and the more I am worried, the more I focus on myself and forgot His visions and dreams that He has showed to me. I focus on something else and ended up not focusing in God's will.
However, this week, God reminded me through one of church connect group's leader and the pastor who preached this morning. God wanted me to reflect His will and to read my journals again. Seriously! I havent write and read it for a long time, AND reflecting His words just made my day! I remember how passionate I was at that time and I wanted to be that kind of person again.
I realized that saying YES to His will is the best decision ever. I used to focus on myself when I was in fresho year to get top university, but God said to go another university. and wow I just had best years in my life. It reminds me that saying YES to God is not just "good" but "the best." I cant imagine if I chose what I "wanted", probably I will not have best experience in my life.
I learnt that make sure that we choose our decision wisely. Our decision can be good, but just "good" BUT saying YES to His will (eventhough sometimes its hard) is not just "good" but the best and consistent (it's getting better better and better). Therefore, it is important to ask Him before we decide it by ourselves. Sometimes God has reminded us if we are wrong, but it's our choice whether we want to choose our decision or His decision. Ask for His confirmation is the best thing to do before we decide (eventhough sometimes it takes time and we must wait patiently).

have a blessed week guys...

When He says "NO", He's actually turn "ON" something bigger and better than we expected... Follow His instruction and keep believing in Him...


"My times are in your hands;
deliver me from the hands of my enemies,
from those who pursue me." - Psalm 31:15

Are you guys ready for ahmayzing journey with Him? 

"I've been spending the last 8 months thinking all love every does is break and burn and end.... BUT on Wednesday in a cafe I WATCHED IT BEGIN AGAIN."- Taylor Swift (Begin Again)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cMPEd8m79Hw

What I miss about Seattle....

1. friendship at Northwest University
2. good times with my apartment mates
3. food adventure with my girls
4. the lake and seattle's view
5. STARBUCKS!!!! (they know how to make the best peppermint mocha and green tea latte also london fogg)
6. Downtown Seattle and bellevue
7. Frozen Yoghurt in bellevue
8. Bellevue square mall and the cinema
9. the chapels at NU
10. morning sunday for church
11. CHORALONS!!
12. the classes and profs

and now..
I am welcoming myself to the new journey in London :)

good times are FOREVER <3 p="p">

When in London...

I stopped for a while to take a picture of the London's landscape near by the Buckingham palace. I was thinking why time goes so fast? I felt like, I just came back from Seattle yesterday... there was a bittersweet feeling but excitement at the same time.

Sometimes and somehow London reminds me a bit of Seattle.. the weather, the cafes and some places.... However, the moments go so quickly and I still cannot believe that I am in London right now.

I felt like I just took a picture of seattle yesterday, but I took a picture of London this evening... oh dear time, why u must move so quickly?

I have never thought that I would have a chance to live in London for a year. I thought that I would be back to Indonesia after graduated from NU. However, plans changed. I took a picture of London and I still cant believe that I am in one of the most beautiful places in the whole world! It's London.. it's like a dream come true..

I realized that, it's such a surprised gift from God! His gifts are always surprised me and never fail. I am really thankful for this moment, the moment where I am actually out from Seattle's zone to London's zone. It's really surprising me. I do not know whats gonna be happen this 1 year in London. but I believe that it's gonna be great experience for me that prepare me to next zone. This is the reason why we must follow His instruction. When we follow His direction, surprising moments come and going to the next zone and higher level.

I am super excited for what God has planned in my life and what plans does He has for me. His plans are always surprised me.

God has so many surprises in our life.... The gift that we never imagine before. Follow His direction and enjoy each moments with Him. Keep walking, enjoy and feel it. Taste and see that the Lord is good.

Keep Stand, Wait and See

Are you facing a challenging season? maybe doctor report, personal challenge or job? Only one answer that answer all of these questions... "JUST BELIEVE"

Sometimes we forget that God is with us, sometimes we wonder why this all happen to us and sometimes we ask "where is He in this season?"

God is a God of every season and whatever season in your life, BE REJOICE! because God has prepared you to the new season and takes care of it.

The season of battle is a season where God has prepared us for a great season. When challenging season comes...seek to the Lord, remember His promise, Follow His instruction, giving praise and worship Him. Declare Him with our faith because He is good and always good. 

Let God fight the battle for you. He is bigger than our battle. Keep believe in Jesus...

stand,wait and see... 

Very bittersweet feeling....

This morning I had baccalaureate chapel in my wonderful school NU. I just realized that it was not easy to leave the school. I had such an amazing memories and wonderful community, but time flies and when it's time to move on to the next level, its time to move.... I have found the greatest community I have ever had in my life. Friends who are not just a friend, but family. Community who encourage each other to be closer to God and inspired each other. I have never experienced this before and I found it in my school Northwest University. 

I still remember 3 years ago, before I came to this school, I asked God "Why You want me to go to this school?" and He said, "I want you to learn something from here." I just follow God's way and after 3 years, I realized that I learned a lot from here. I do not just learn academically, but spiritually. This school has shaped me into a person that I am today.

The first time I came to NU, I was wondering why I need 3 times chapel in a week, why I need to take Bible classes and why everyone is so encouraging each other??!! However, I realized that the more I seek Jesus, the more I am hungry of His words, His songs and His joy! Besides, the friendship that I have in here is very special and I believe our friendship will last long! its not ended up here, but forever! friendship is all about heart, friendship is all about encouraging each other, friendship is all about loving each other and I found it in NU. 

When I had the most challenging moment in my life, they are always encourage me and speak about His words. This two months has been really challenging and something that very unexpected, but I am really thankful that I am here surrounding with most wonderful people in my life who encourage me to not stop believing His will in dry season. 

Next week will be my last week in NU! I know that it will be very hard to leave the comfort zone...but when it's time to move, it's time... I believe that God have amazing plan and send great community like what I have right now.... and I do believe that our friendship is not just a family friendship, but connection that one day we will work together for God's glory. I pray that the vision that we have won't stop until here. 

I will really miss everything in Seattle and NU! I just wanna say that I just had the best 3 years in my life! and I am super excited for what God gonna bring me next :) 

God is a loving Father and He provides :)

Believe

Let me share what Pastor Chelsea (City Church) preach about 4 months ago. I just realized that I have not posted it yet. I found that its such a powerful messages for all of us who need His guidance. I had a challenging season this two months. I opened my journal book again and ohmy... this message really encourage me to BELIEVE. His words is alive and never get old!

This is what I wrote on my journal....

It is time

It's time TO BELIEVE the promise of God.
- I don't understand, but I choose to believe You.
- Trust: being okay
- Faith: I'm gonna believe!
- God is waiting for you to ask good things
- Faith isn't give a stare to the situation and give God a glance, faith is give glory to God and to look to God that He is able.

4 things:
1. Its time to believe for more what we deserve (Romans 4:14)
2. It is time to believe that God is good (Romans 4:17)
3. God has good plans for us (Romans 4:18)
4. It is time to believe a miracle (Romas 4:21)

Faith

Lord, where is my faith?

Don't You hear my prayers?

Where is the answer?

Why this happened to me?

Lord,

everything seems so impossible

You promise that the time is coming..

but when?

My soul wait patiently

but it just in my dream

Why don't you prove it Lord?

Isn't it easy for You to "prove" it?

Lord,

my heart cry

hurt that produce tears

and sadness in my eyes

My Father,

please don't leave me

once again,

walk with me

I am weak

I need strength

Let You hold my hand

in the darkness

I believe You

the time is almost there

it's almost there

I believe

everything will be allright

as You promise

Forgive me o my Lord

give me strength to go through

this moment...

The moment of FAITH

Thank you Father...

once again...

thank you

Praising Song

You are Love

You are Faithful

You are Peace

Your Love covered my heart

Your Hope strengthen my faith

Your Peace lifted my soul

We praise You, Lord

Our heart always sing for You

For what You've done

Thank you Father

Notes:

The more we praise Him, the more peaceful we are. Praising Him is a powerful weapon to get rid our problems. When we keep praising Him, we find love, hope and peace. I wrote this song for my Father in the Heaven....

I...

keep praising to You o Lord..

keep believing in You

and expect good things..

let it happen according Your plans

and Your visions

Dont let the devils messed it up

I believe Lord..

I pray so he wont be in the wrong direction

let he choose You

let he open his heart to listen to Your words

I expect good things...

Thankful for challenging week

Feeling so close to You

and freedom is here!

praising You o Lord

Father, I believe Your time is always perfect

I will wait...

and patience...

I love you Father....

I am so in love with You....

When I believe....

everything will turn out good...
I still dont know what the result is...
but my job right now is to BELIEVE for bright future and hope...

yes, instead worrying, I will waste my energy to BELIEVE...
I keep silence and patience in Lord..
Worry make the things that we worry about come to pass, but BELIEVE make it happen and give different story...much better story :)

My heart is always sing and praise Him....

It's gonna be a great year! and I expect good things happen...
I am tooo blessed to be worry :)
I am thankful for the peace..

Believe

I still cannot see the big picture yet

I still cannot see how small the problem is actually

I still cannot see how to believe

Complicated

weird

and unreal

I missed it

Wish I could go back at that time

Wish I did it

I dont know if its too late

I dont know if its just a test

I dont know anything

No words can say

No words can explain

No words can tell

Its better to be quiet

put His words instead my words

praise Him and be thankful

I wish....

I hope...

I pray...

Its hard to believe

but I try

and I choose to BELIEVE

I choose....

So many things weird things happened this week. Just heard bad news from home and I felt like my heart stopped for 1 second. I cant believe about whats going on right now and I dont know what it happens. God gave me vision and confirmation, but weird thing happened. It is such a big challenge for me. I still dont know is it just a test or what...I dont know. I cannot expect too much, but I try and choose to BELIEVE!

What I see right now everything is so complicated and non sense. but, if its not His will and plans, He will change the story and much better.

My God is not a confusing Author and I believe the time is coming... what I need to do is just believe...I try and I choose to believe....

2011 and 2012

Wow! I still cannot believe that 2011 is OVER! 2011 had been an amazing year, full of memorable moments, new friendship, and surprisingly all my wish lists that I wrote in 1 January 2011 have been checked! wow... and there were surprised journey in between.

AND NOW...IT'S TIME TO SAY "HELLO 2012!" WOW! haha sorry I just cannot repeating this word "WOW!" seriously time goes really fast and I AM 22!!! DOUBLE 'WOW'

This year, I will be graduate and receive my Bachelor of Art in Psychology and Cultural as my concentration. I still cannot believe that I will be done with undergraduate study in 3 months.....3 months! can you believe it? The hardest part is that I will leave Seattle soon. I am sure it will be really hard to leave NU and Seattle in May. I had the best moment and met most wonderful people in my life. They are just such an ahmayzing friends. I dont know how will I feel when I leave this place, but I will try so hard to think that it is time to move to the next level of life. Well..I dont want to think about it right now. What I wanna do is that I just wanna enjoy this 3 months as "undergraduate student"

The most exciting about 2012 is that I will have an opportunity to go to London for a year to study in Fashion Business. Well, the application still in process. If this plan is God's will, I believe that everything goes well. We'll see whats gonna be happen! I am nervous and so excited at the same time.

2012 will be such an memorable and amazing year! I dont know whats gonna be happen, but I do believe God has a great plan! From my work in the future, mission, soulmate, friendship, etc. I'll keep trusting Him until I arrive in promise land. I will try not to worry too much!

I am so thankful and I cannot stop saying "Thank YOU Jesus" all the time. 2011 was not an easy year, but it was a very blessed year too!

I am excited about what gonna be happen 2012! I am excited to experience amazing journey with Him.

I closed the old year and welcome the new year!

What I am thankful for in 2011:

1. Peace

2. Patience

3. Strength

4. Trust God's plans and not worrying too much

5. Passed my courses

6. Europe trip

7. Best decision

8. Good relationship with parents and brother

9. Friendship

10. ....... (still more but I will just write some)

Here is my "NEW YEAR RESOLUTION" :

1. MY LIFE IS WHAT GOD SAYS ABOUT ME. :)

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PS: "Dont let our limited understanding stopping us to trust His plans....Hear His voice and follow His ways. Don't let our feeling or emotion control us."

The Beauty of God...

Some of you knowing me really well, but I have never told anyone about my story when I was 20. I think it is time for me to share my story to you. I had a problem worrying about my appearance. I did not do it in healthy way and ended up bad. I could not focus in class, I almost fainted and got headache all the time. I tried so hard to lose my weight and be "skinny" like what people said. I also worried about being "ugly" I was not confident at all and someone told me if I wanted to be beautiful I must made my eyes bigger. It was the scariest thing in my life to do eye surgeon! I have never done it before and I was totally scared. I was thinking about doing it because I was worried of being ugly and no one wanted me. I ended up worried about life and myself. I felt no one understand and accept me.

I still remember I was sitting in my room and told God "Lord, why You made me like this? I am not beautiful, I am scared about future, I am....." But my Father, who really knows me well and accept me for who I am told me "seek the Beauty of God first before you think about your appearance." This simple answer changes me Forever!

After a year, I chose to be ME and not someone else. I chose to be happy and do it in HEALTHY WAY! Now I know the meaning of "BEAUTIFUL" Because of His GRACE, I have found the Beauty of GOD and His BEAUTY appears on me.

God made us uniquely and everyone is beautiful in His eyes.

Seek the beauty of God first, before we focus and wanna change our appearance